First stop on Holy Ship, Nassau (Day Two). As beautiful as the water and sky was, it was FREEZING! So windy, it was unbearable. I mean do you see the palm trees?! I thought they were going to knock over. Still the boys and I made the best out of it. We grabbed a bottle of Ciroc and drank by the beach. We might've stayed in Nassau, for like 2 hours before we went back on the boat. Smoked my first cigar while dancing next to this awesome local who was playing on his saxophone. (Video on my IG page @thaodiaries, haha.) Sadly, that's the only pictures and video I have. The rest of the pics we took were on my boy Pauly's phone. And well, let's just say his phone didn't survive the trip. Lol
I can't wait to go back on Holy Ship next year. I still plan on doing the cruise that sets sail to the Bahamas, since this time around I didn't get to have the full experience because the private beach party was cancelled due to the windy weather. :( Who knows, I might even jump on the Mediterranean cruise in September, just 'cause Holy Ship is so much fun! We'll see…
This was a special day for me, something as simple as a bonfire with friends could make me so happy. When my friend walks up on the beach blasting Above & Beyond "We're All We Need" on his speakers... I'm not sure if it was the excitement of finally hearing music, or the feels you get when you hear A&B, but it changed my mood entirely. Like there was no reason in the world to be sad or upset. Just pure bliss and happiness like nothing else in the world mattered. As I looked around, I realized that my loved ones are really "all I need". I joke all the time that they saved my life, but they really did - I can't even express in words. That's how grateful and lucky I feel to have the friends/family that I do.
A perfect Saturday afternoon walking around Cannery Row with my girlfriends. Sometimes girls days are essential, 'cause lets face it... we all like to talk and gossip and do girly little things when the boys aren't around. :p A lot of laughs, and also a few tears - our bond always becomes stronger and we all get to know each other a little bit better. Had a great time with my loves, seriously need to do it more often. Wine tasting in Napa is next up, and March couldn't come any sooner!
Why settle? Why should anyone have too? I get asked all the time if I'm dating anyone. Does a girl ALWAYS have to be with prince charming or something? I must've missed that memo growing up, but I am wise enough to know that not everyone can be my prince charming. I may not know exactly what I want, but I have an idea, and I have the patience to wait for it. I see too many people settle for relationships that aren't really worth it. Would you truly be happy if you've done so? I think many people settle out of "fear". Fear of many things: ending up alone, not having a family, not being able to find someone better. Simply scared to see what else is out there and even scared to try.
I get it, I've been there. I was content and settled, but never had the simple satisfaction of being truly happy. I'm lucky I broke out of it though, I couldn't live a settled life. I however can say I was never the type that "needed" to be with someone. (Thanks to my little inner me for being independent.) I haven't had many boyfriends either just 'cause I rather be alone, if it's not what I want. Over time I've realized, you really don't need to be with someone in order to be happy. The most important relationship you can have is the one you have with yourself, and you're in charge of your own happiness... Your happiness doesn't depend on someone else. Why should it?
That's why I stopped being afraid. I know my worth and you should too. Sometimes the fears you have cloud your judgement, so do you really want to live the rest of your life out of fear? It's all about knowing yourself and deciding what you want. If you love yourself as well as respect yourself, than decisions will come naturally and you should never have to compromise.
All fresh for a new beginning, a fresh start. A new year. At first I didn't buy the whole concept, but this year I do. It's not even a belief, more of just a feeling that I have. I guess I can best describe it as a sense of bliss? 2014 was an amazing year, and I just have a feeling 2015 will be better. My outlook and perspective on life has completely changed; and because of that, the dynamics have changed. I'm still the same person, just more content and happy with who I am and where my life is. This has honestly been the happiest I've been in awhile. A rang in the new year surrounded with so much love and positivity, I hope you had the same. A new beginning feels like a good cleanse. The dust has settled, and you wipe it away clean. Even though your past is still there and your life is the same; it's still a new chapter.
2014 has been a year of realization for me. Many new experiences, many first, many life lessons learned and wonderful memories. The list is endless... Now what's next? I'm not sure what my future holds, but I'm excited on where my life is going. I mean we all have dreams right? That's what keeps us inspired and driven to do more. I guess new years resolutions can be cliché sometimes, but what if you really did stick through it the whole entire year?! Too me you're just setting yourself a goal and commit to it; you will succeed and feel a sense of accomplishment. So why not dream big? Try your best, do your best, so you can be the best person you can be. That's all I want, to be better and do more of what I love. (This calls for another little endless list of mine...) So what are your resolutions this year? Write it down and keep it somewhere to remind yourself everyday of it. As simple as they may be, or as many as you have, just go for it. It's your own personal ideas and it's your life, so live it as you wish.
So cheers to a new year, but that same you. Well actually, not the same, make that a better 'you'.